I really don’t know if someone reads my posts here or if someone happens to crawl this very unupdated blog of mine but as you can read the title of this post, I am in need of help. Although my problem is not that big, but it seems very annoying to me now that I realized what was going on and what is happening to me now. I am going to share my “problem” in hope that someone who can read this might want to help me or give me some advice which I will be very grateful about it. So anyway, my story begins here.

When I rose from bed today, I told myself “What a very unproductive weekend for me…again”. That was the first thing I thought of and so I decided to wash my clothes since the sun is already up and I need enough sunshine to dry my clothes. While I was washing my clothes, I was thinking why do I feel okay even if I had a very unproductive day and why does it not bother me that I have not done any of my responsibilities when in fact I was not like this before. So I was startled when I realized this and I was disappointed about myself. Since the year 2009 started, I realized that I always end up having a very unproductive weekend and it seemed fine. It only struck me today that I was creaming in my mind “Hey! What is happening to you! This is not you! And this should not be you!” and so I came to a pause and thought about it then I said to myself “Hey, I am right, this is not me and this should not be me”. You might ask why but the way I knew myself was that I was someone who never wanted to end a day doing nothing and I always find it disrtubing that I have unaccomplished tasks but now, it didn’t matter at all. I never had any absences nor overdue reports but now, I don’t have a class that I didn’t have any absence and all of my reports are overdue. These things just came to me and I don’t know why is this happening to me…

I really do need help and I’ll try to talk to my friends with regard to this matter but an opinion, suggestion or advice would really make me feel better. Thanks!