The Thinking Beans

Not sure if this means anything, but you are not alone in your feelings. It doesn’t help to know there are others: I know this because I am one of those “others” with the same feelings as you. I have felt down before, bummed, etc. This somehow feels different, deeper. In my past, things have lifter me out of these minor depressions, but now I’m really isolated with zero support system. Friends I thought I had are gone, off in their own little Facebook worlds of self-seeking admiration and acceptance from others who either put others down, or feel this insatiable need to be noticed. Rambling. I can offer this, as it helps me survive each day…even if each day seems worse; after a time, you won’t be missed…after you “leave”. Because no one will understand, and they will accept that…and they will “move on”. And, so, what was it all for. I often think I want to leave because of the pain I feel, but part of it is i want everyone else to know the pain I felt. The fact is, they don’t now and they never will. I can’t say this will keep you here… but it sometimes helps me through. You’ll never know what happens after you go… and that may be the saddest part of it all, and there’s no turning that back. You have time….