When I rose from bed today, I told myself “What a very unproductive weekend for me…again”. That was the first thing I thought of and so I decided to wash my clothes since the sun is already up and I need enough sunshine to dry my clothes. While I was washing my clothes, I was thinking why do I feel okay even if I had a very unproductive day and why does it not bother me that I have not done any of my responsibilities when in fact I was not like this before. So I was startled when I realized this and I was disappointed about myself. Since the year 2009 started, I realized that I always end up having a very unproductive weekend and it seemed fine. It only struck me today that I was creaming in my mind “Hey! What is happening to you! This is not you! And this should not be you!” and so I came to a pause and thought about it then I said to myself “Hey, I am right, this is not me and this should not be me”. You might ask why but the way I knew myself was that I was someone who never wanted to end a day doing nothing and I always find it disrtubing that I have unaccomplished tasks but now, it didn’t matter at all. I never had any absences nor overdue reports but now, I don’t have a class that I didn’t have any absence and all of my reports are overdue. These things just came to me and I don’t know why is this happening to me…

I really do need help and I’ll try to talk to my friends with regard to this matter but an opinion, suggestion or advice would really make me feel better. Thanks!